Anyway overall my crisis is lower today and the last few days, and
I'm getting on with life, without him,
and he is definitely getting on with life without me.

We havent spoken in over a week and that was a very short conversation,
Christmas will have to be discussed,
I suppose I should arrange to meet with him and talk,
I hate talking to him and I hate not talking to him.

When will I get used to this, never maybe, or maybe soon,
I'm not negative about anything today, its just he popped into my head
I guess all the family time for me, although I am loving it, as I sit here,
it has highlighted his absence.
My biggest emotion about this is simply, regret,
I wonder what his is.